hehs, heys dear all... i just thought it was time for my to blog about some real thoughts, and not just those photos u see almost every other day. ;)

well today's been a relatively good day although i woke up real late, n was real late for class,of which i only attended 1/3 of what i was supposed to attend.... but still, i thank God for seeing me through today! especially when my parents are at work,and my dearest closest kin*, my zehhh went to work as well!ahh wells. =p we all grow up one day don't we? :)
hmms,then after spending abt 2 hrs with my cousin geraldine, and my zeh in tecman at bras basah...sourcing for good christian books to read, be it about - faith,love, relationships w ppl,with God, at day's end,we walked outta d store happily holding onto the plastic bag of BOOKS we bought. having faith that we will really learn sth useful outta these books. (:

i got this book for myself, compliments from my sister.HAHA cuz i am such a broke lil' girl.
and that i would WANNA read, she'd be most happy!hehs anws the title of the book i got was
"Finding a Man Worth Keeping"...how interesting right.... how are we able to define this "worth"?
that's for me to read,for u to find out!but i wun b mean, i'll prolly give some reflections here after im done w it yah?;)

that aside, Little Nonya is finally at its last episode today... it was reli thrilling to watch it lahs.,not only the ending, BUT, all along! it was a superb show really.teaching us of all the Peranakan practices,dishes, etc. But seeing how each of the ladies in the show were treated,it reli provoked some thoughts in me.

Well, if, in those olden days, ladies were in reality so unfairly treated, then, i am deeply thankful that i am living in the present, where we reli have alot of freedom given to us.

Still, at day's end, something simliar that we all learn here, from this show, is that despite the test of time, one thing never changes. - something that brings us back to reality;

-that the people whom you're good to, may not reciprocrate to you.
(and vice versa - that the ppl u detest, are actually e ones who loves u)

-and for matters of the heart alike, no matter how much u love that person.

-and even if that someone reciprocrates, you're never able to get that same level of committment; there is bound to be someone at the losing end who sacrifices more.

Funny how despite the test of time, such things are still the same, i guess that is how we choose to live, u can't in anyway force anyone to love that someone that he/she doesnt love.that is insane.but in those days, did they even have a chance to choose? and talk about 日久深情..
i don't really believe in that cuz, somethings just can't be forced; so let us just take the benefit of the doubt of ppl's feelings, and not just say it is always feasible for that.

And so,for this i've become so numb that i don't even wanna talk about it.
to Think? maybe - only in my fairytale world, but STILL, knowing it is fairytale afterall, or just, in that 2 or 3 hour of movie in that cinema can that fantasy be reality.anyhows i still know it is,but my fantasy. So, rather than bothering myself with all these 'what-if's' and 'what-nots'...
i'll gladly move on with life, move on in this year of 2009, embrace everything that's lovely around me - including frens so dear, and family that r dearests to me. Because i know, even if i hit rock bottom, God is still there for me.and i have a great creator up there who plans everything so beautifully in His time, therefore i have no worries about that. (:

Still, trusting God in all matters is an everyday homework for me to learn.
what about u? (:

agl ♥-ed at 8:53 AM.