You know people, it really ain't good contemplating abt turning in.you should just go ahead n sleeeeep when you can.trust me.u wouldn't want to end up being overwhelmed by insomnia at unearthly hours like 4am, or 6am or the in btwns. and so i slept at another unearthly hour yesterday, but not so much due to insomnia; i guess i was just wide awake! tuning in to my ipod - of tunes that recalls all d nostalgic moments again!!! ahhhh.not good,not good. then i figured out something which i thought would be worth sharing here.

All along, i thought i loved a particular someone so much. But it wasnt until yesterday, that i asked myself how much do i actually know of him, and what is there,just what is there that binds us together? i tell you the answer - nothing. Yes, it was just a fantasy of 6 years worth, that feeling. It was this surreal feeling that kept me going, and not giving up till some time recently.
It probably wasnt him that i am in love with, but fantasy, but that feeling. Although i wouldnt know how things would be like now if we all reacted differently.Still, bringing us back to reality, we have all grown, and changed. And if i were to stand in front of him right now, as i really did a couple of weeks back, that surreal feeling isnt there anymore, and a qn i would very much ask myself - do i still love this person standin' in front of me despite the test of time, & d test of feelings? i would contemplate to answer this qn because even deep down,i do not have an answer! =/

But i think i still dont know what it means to love a person.Love is sacrificial, it is wanting d best for tt person.& have i fulfilled that??and afterall,how much do i know him deep down. and just like how people do change,i think feelings change even faster than character.HAHA.and im glad,im really glad, that i can finally close this chapter of 'feelings'& 'fantasy' i've left of him,or whatever he had left for me. still, this friendship never changes... i hope that when we get older, & have our own lives n families (if God will bless each of us with), i do hope to walk down that memory lane with him,flippin' d pages, reminiscing the gd old days to friendships made, and laugh over all the young n innocent days we've been through. at day's end,i thank God for u, ** .

& this is your* song, even though u may not have known. Cos it simply reminds me of you. Not playin' it now cuz i still can't let go of the past, but cos' i want to reminisce and give thanks for the rainy/sunshine days each of us have been through.and so to you, that big big boy, cheers to this friendship now & always! :pppp & u know no matter where life tks each of us to, you'd always have my warmest n bestest well wishes. :))

agl flips to d first page ...." at the pathway of the hall, where she meets this young boy & starts a convo to ask if he knows her friend...."

& finally closing this book of hers with a smile on her face, with heartfelt gratification to e Lord for all e wonderful times w her friends. & she'll gladly flip d pages to talk,laugh, & recall all these heartwarming moments again. :))))

agl ♥-ed at 8:54 AM.